I was going through the regular stuff at work this afternoon and realized that today is my 5th anniversary at my current job. Five years went by just like that!!! I can say that my life took a different turn during this time. I have a mixed feeling about this anniversary. Usually I’m very excited about this type of events in my life. In the past years I had taken my hubby out to dinner to celebrate while I had crossed off another year on the calender. But this year is a little different. My heart is tender and in pain, I am leaving my comfort here in two days to pursue newer challenges, to face the unknown.
Countdown to my departure had already started two weeks ago. These two weeks have been extremely difficult for me. Actually the difficulty started even before that. Who knew that leaving a job would be this hard! But believe me, this has been ridiculously hard on me. I have gone back and forth about my decision many many times. To be honest, I still can’t believe that I’m doing this. One thing I realized during this process is that I’m wayyyy more emotionally attached to this place and it’s people than I thought. I felt more love in last one month than I ever felt before. May be I never took the time to feel this level of affection, but it was there. My heart is melting today (and it’s been since last few weeks). I decided to enjoy my last few days here and to look into the positives. All I can say is that have tremendous amount of gratitude for this place and it’s people and I’m appreciative of everything I received from here in last five years.